18 and legal

Since I've turned 18, I only regret things alot faster.. only this way I can drive away from all my problems.
Ha- Oh the young people in this world, waiting to grow up. From personal experience, I've found it hard growing up and not knowing what the hell to do with myself. Job, friends, church, God, family, boyfriend... How did it all change from 17 to 18 so fast?! Now it's my turn to choose what I want for myself and I'm not sure how to choose. 
Maybe there isn't a fear to fail, but I'm scared I'll turn out to be something great. Weird hey? 
I mean if I get everything that I've been told I could have (If only I waited) I can see myself, close to a millionaire, playing music with my hubby, selling albums, touring the world to play and sing, have the best kids and live life in complete LOVE. 
Doesn't seem too out of reach, Hmm.. Now where is the first step towards this dream?
Church on Sunday? Resume's for a job? 
Or is it as simple as learning to forgive quicker, learning life isn't all about ME. 
That's it! I've made up my mind! I'm going to change, for the better :) Look around for jobs, start saving, look into wedding plans, look for a house, get close to God again and begin to really love. Just fall in love with as much as I can, whenever the opportunity arises. 
I know who means the world to me and it's for those people- that I choose from this moment on, to put them before me. Because I know that my 'dream life' is closer than I think. 


Signing off-
You're dedicated girl