Whatever world.

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed, turn down these voices inside my head.
Lay down with me, tell me no lies. Just hold me closely, don't patronise me.

I wish, privacy was actually available. I am a locked door. "Engaged" as of final notice. DO NOT DISTURB. I wonder how much longer this will go on for. When will I grow out of you? When will this confusion settle & I'll just see clearly? For now I just want to get numb, get saturated in nothingness. I want my life to be my own. HANDLE WITH CARE. Oh god, I don't remember the last time I was handled with care, like really really handled with care. When will I actually get to experience freedom, True freedom. When will the day come where people will mind their OWN business? I have never felt so lonely, so judged and so betrayed by the church & especially people in it, ever in my life.
Screw you all. Jesus understands me. And tonight, that's all that matters.